Where the Hell Have I Been?

Deep into the night of my twenty-sixth birthday—12:47 a.m. to be exact—someone hacked into my site and installed malicious adware. I am not sure what that term actually means, I have a general understanding, but I don’t care to know the extent of it. Simply put, I was crushed when I realized what had happened.

Over the next few days, I had to take everything apart and then put it back together—several times. It had taken me two whole months to get everything functioning properly the first time around. Having to do it again—after an attack—was daunting to say the least. My technical knowledge is “limited” at best. There were moments when I wanted to give in, give up, and let go. But then I thought of The Alchemist and how the Universe tests our strengths of will as we get closer to accomplishing our dreams. I accepted and understood that I was being tested and that all of this was necessary. I am getting closer to realizing the full potential of my dreams.

Bottom line: I am not giving up.

Shit happens. Sometimes you’re the windshield and sometimes you’re the bug.

Throughout this ordeal there were times when I wanted to cry, scream, curse my luck, etc. Instead, I remembered that thousands of people were affected by this hack. I was not alone. There was a vulnerability in the version of WordPress that I was using and I am sure that there were other factors that lead up to the incident. But none of that even matters. What matters is that it happened. And because it happened, it was meant to happen. As much as I may have wanted to cry, scream, curse, and so on, I didn’t. I knew that if the Universe did not want me to endure it, I would not have been enduring it.

When it comes to the will of the Universe, resistance is never the answer. Acceptance always is.

It has been exactly two weeks now and the pieces are finally coming back together—albeit very slowly. Not only do I accept that this happened, but now I am grateful that this happened. I had been planning some changes & upgrades for awhile and this event has pushed those things to the front burner.

If this was my test, then bring it on Universe. I am not planning to give up on my dream anytime soon!

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In love & light,